New beginnings

So much has happened since my last post but not much has changed. Honestly didn't think I'd be on here writing again. I've been trying to leave the past in the past which this is one of those places I'd rather not look back at. I changed up my blog a bit to open up more about my mom and not bottle things in, but right now that's prob a subject I rather not even get into. Right now what's working for me is the less I think about it, the less it eats me up. I will say I am thankful and blessed to have my mom with me, and still being able to care for her daily. 

Changing it up a bit, I am however greatful for the handful of people that have gone out there way to help, even when they had issues of their own. I will always be thankful for them. Otherwise, I'd still be in that dark depressing hole hating the world. 

My better half always helped in ways I couldn't imagine. God truly blessed me with a marvelous man to be by my side. Even though our dream wedding went out the window, he's still my caring and loving husband I could ever ask for. As everyday passes by, I fall more in love with him then ever. He has bent over backwards not only for me, but for my family as well. This year has not only been hard for me, but for him as well. Not going into details since it's a very sensitive subject, but even with the heartache him and his family went through, he always managed to still be there for me. As much as I was giving up my faith, I still prayed for the struggle they went through and hoping God would make it all better for all of us. May was a rough month for both our families, but we all managed to overcome it. 

Aside from all the nightmares I've been living, there are some good days. Today I caught up with an old friend which is something I haven't really done in a while. Considering I don't have many friends, she has sure been with me through my toughest times. Gotta say it was nice just going out and not thinking of all the 72728282 problems I have. Another great gal that also helps me not think of bs is my youngest sister in law. She has really been there for me and shown me her sincerity. Best part of it all, we are now neighbors! Haha, what are the odds! Even with trying to find a house, we are gonna enjoy living this close to each other for the year to come. 

Oh yeah, did I mention how stressful it is trying to find a house!? Ugh...let's not get into that lol. Well my baby girl Bella turned 1, June 28. Since I don't have kids and prob won't have the luck of having one, my cat fills up that empty spot in not a weird way. Obviously you can't replace a pet with a child, but when that's all you have (besides your family of course) you love it in ways you didn't think you could love a pet. When my dog passed away, I never wanted to own another pet again. I truly loved that dog as if he was my kid, and now with my cat, she has brought happiness to my life. I guess if you're not a pet person, you will think I'm crazy. Well I'm not, when I adopted Bella, she helped me with my depression. I am truly greatful for this fat fur ball, cause otherwise I'd be hooked on depression meds. Hopefully when I look at these posts I won't regret posting this since I'm not open about it at all. Any who, this shall be it for today. Hopefully next time I'll have more positive things to say rather than depressed stories. Here's a pic to end this of my baby girl on her birthday. Like any princess, she wore 2 outfits that day lol.