Dreams

My mom had this dream the other night that brought both of us to tears (only I didn't cry in front of her to show her how confident and strong I've been) but it brought her back that faith she needed. She was sitting down crying and explaining to me what had happened. 

It went like this-

I was dreaming we were both here sleeping, then I saw a man in a white gown standing in the door. I didn't wake you because you were sound asleep. He would just stare at me but wouldn't talk or move. A doctor came to the house and was checking up on me. Then man in white got closer to me and just stood there staring. I wasn't scared just confused since he wouldn't talk. He then finally told me to hold his hand that we had to leave. I told him I didn't want to. I got a weird presence he wasn't with the doctor, that he might of been an angel. He kept telling me to go with him but then that's when the doctor told him I wasn't going anywhere. That I would get better with time. For him to leave me alone and not come back, and that it wasn't my time to leave yet as I would be cancer free. The man then left and I woke up. 

Just writing this and remembering this exact moment still brings tears to my eyes. She may of been losing faith slowly, but I'm sure it was God's way of reminding her not to. To keep fighting and not give up. My mom has always believed it the miracle of prayers but I'm sure she's still scared tremendously inside from time to time. I know I would be too. She then told me she really needed that dream to remind her God will not leave her sight and he will get her through this. 

Some people may see it as just a dream, but to us it was something much more than that. My faith has grown so much these past weeks. I had very little faith in the beginning of this with the way doctors in Hermann hospital spoke to us, but now with God closer to our hearts I know this will pass and mom will be better and cured. I know everyone with cancer wishes this, just never lose your faith and keep fighting. I know many people who have lost their battle recently and only God knows why, but all I can say is to not let it bring your hopes down as everyone's case is different. Keeping positive thoughts and prayers to everyone going though this. May God bless all the great people we've met at the cancer center.