One down, one more to go!

Mom is finally home from the hospital. It's a bitter sweet feeling. I'm beyond happy she's finally home, but to just think we have to experience all of this all over again in less than 2 weeks kills me. I can only imagine what she's feeling. Seeing how bad she reacted to this brachytherapy scares the crap out of me for her next one. I know God is great and will help her through the last one, but still to just think of all the pain she will go through all over doesn't make these horrible feelings disappear. She's even more weak than she was before. Just hope she regains some strength before the next chemo rounds that we are not looking forward to:( 

With all of this going on I've also realized how selfish some people can be. They're not in my shoes so I don't expect them to understand but at least to comprehend I shouldn't be bothered with non sense. It's an ugly thing to say but my moms health was life threatening this weekend. I've put everything aside for her meaning if I don't care for my own personal life right now what exactly makes people think I have time to care for anything else? I've been beyond depressed but thankfully I have a loving hubby that understands me completely. He went through a rough time with his father so he gets me well. My uncle, sister and grandma are great supporters. Idk what I would do without them. We are a small family and care for each other deeply. Of course my Muñoz family understands as well and have been there for me since the beginning. Visit even when I just feel like being alone but knowing that they understand us well & know how hard it is to care for my mom 24/7. My mom did it for many years I don't ever regret quitting my job to be by her side.

 My sister in law invited me out this weekend. Felt really good hanging out with her and her husband and just forgetting about everything else for a few hours. My plans were to just be home depressed watching tv haha what a weekend huh. Great full for them and glad I agreed on going out. 

Now my mom is home and I am back to reality. Cooking for her every 3hrs different  foods through out the day. Some she hates but like she used to do with me if she doesn't like it I cook as much food as I can just so she can eat. Pretty much like a home buffet especially for her :) Yes I spoil my mom haha. Well so far no fevers or loss of blood anymore so thanking God for a quick recovery from this!